We shared a grandmother
when the earth was not new, like us,
but middling, like her,
And we were footnotes
in an attic of memories,
As time spun us all.
Beneath the glass, age advanced
to shadow it, the light no longer emanating within her.
Crepe fingers gathered black cobwebs
and they said something that was
Not a simple few contractions:
"Grandmother has withdrawn from London permanently,"
and so did my heart;
but I could not pin back my hunger for her.
We have lost an age, which was never ours,
a cocktail of nostalgia and bitters,
and the one we have, we cannot contain,
the future lapping ever at the brim.
Desideratum
Wednesday, April 30, 2014
Saturday, February 22, 2014
Natural Selection
Children will grow without us;
In towers, forests, and tulips.
Children will grow in spite of us;
Abandoned to wolves and witches,
they adapt and grow wise.
Children will grow to destroy us;
With their terrible pity,
new tomorrows,
and unenchanted mirrors.
In towers, forests, and tulips.
Children will grow in spite of us;
Abandoned to wolves and witches,
they adapt and grow wise.
Children will grow to destroy us;
With their terrible pity,
new tomorrows,
and unenchanted mirrors.
Monday, January 20, 2014
The razor tight rope I walk for love,
Drank the repentance spilt from my knees;
These hands that cannot pray unless they hold him,
Bound the prayer cord about my hips like a chastity belt,
Cutting off circulation.
The saints hold me like a wounded thief on the cross,
Telling me the hows & whys don’t matter in sacrifice,
If I trust to the ends of creation;
But the song of glory is stuck in my throat,
And I will not render unto God what is his.
Drank the repentance spilt from my knees;
These hands that cannot pray unless they hold him,
Bound the prayer cord about my hips like a chastity belt,
Cutting off circulation.
The saints hold me like a wounded thief on the cross,
Telling me the hows & whys don’t matter in sacrifice,
If I trust to the ends of creation;
But the song of glory is stuck in my throat,
And I will not render unto God what is his.
Wednesday, December 18, 2013
Uninhabited
My heart cannot contain the frailty that makes it falter,
nor the solar plexus sustain the force of your glance,
a hollowing without breath between my lungs.
Each gasp of swollen mouth, a wound agape,
cauterized by your kisses, cored by your tongue--
Devoid of both, a calcified shell of skin,
Whispering of wellsprings spent.
Your lust and loathing, in equal measure,
leave me insensible as ether.
The pulse you palpitate beneath your hands
is unequal to the occasion.
The hunger in my belly is
not satiated by what I consume,
But what consumes me.
Love is in the empty, the ache of what is not
within me.
nor the solar plexus sustain the force of your glance,
a hollowing without breath between my lungs.
Each gasp of swollen mouth, a wound agape,
cauterized by your kisses, cored by your tongue--
Devoid of both, a calcified shell of skin,
Whispering of wellsprings spent.
Your lust and loathing, in equal measure,
leave me insensible as ether.
The pulse you palpitate beneath your hands
is unequal to the occasion.
The hunger in my belly is
not satiated by what I consume,
But what consumes me.
Love is in the empty, the ache of what is not
within me.
Sunday, October 28, 2012
Boldness
"Be bold, be bold, but not too bold"
An act of light, the love I gave you,
blinding prudence with scintillation,
And you bade me follow you home.
The road to hell is paved in white stones.
Moonlight shrouds the red
of tooth and claw,
Like a well-drest beast.
You pawed at me in primal ravening,
Pinned my wrist beneath your hunger,
which was my right, and all you left.
The remains of other affairs mounted above your mantle,
Wedding bands still attached to hands;
A grim chiromancy.
But girls go on without hands, heels, tongues:
we endure and escape to bear witness,
if only in drops of blood along the path,
calling to those who would not be victims.
An act of light, the love I gave you,
blinding prudence with scintillation,
And you bade me follow you home.
The road to hell is paved in white stones.
Moonlight shrouds the red
of tooth and claw,
Like a well-drest beast.
You pawed at me in primal ravening,
Pinned my wrist beneath your hunger,
which was my right, and all you left.
The remains of other affairs mounted above your mantle,
Wedding bands still attached to hands;
A grim chiromancy.
But girls go on without hands, heels, tongues:
we endure and escape to bear witness,
if only in drops of blood along the path,
calling to those who would not be victims.
Saturday, May 22, 2010
Sunday, May 09, 2010
ideation
she was porous in talking;
each word a higgs particle,
slipping around heavy ideas.
a thing may have several causes;
summing in a synapse.
like neuronal communication,
we are a sum of science & theory.
doubt not the world is a construct of faith,
or you will be caged by your own perception;
another dead cat in an invisible box.
she was porous in talking;
each word a higgs particle,
slipping around heavy ideas.
a thing may have several causes;
summing in a synapse.
like neuronal communication,
we are a sum of science & theory.
doubt not the world is a construct of faith,
or you will be caged by your own perception;
another dead cat in an invisible box.
We release our teeth, satiated insects,
blood swollen stomachs
translucent, truculent.
Our words peel away like bark;
Those birches
(from Japanese prints)
were first from nature
and so were we.
Artists names translate
into windows
commandments to seek
their work in life
but our compound eyes are glassed,
and our jaws yet drip.
blood swollen stomachs
translucent, truculent.
Our words peel away like bark;
Those birches
(from Japanese prints)
were first from nature
and so were we.
Artists names translate
into windows
commandments to seek
their work in life
but our compound eyes are glassed,
and our jaws yet drip.
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Her veins of moonlight opened
Spattering the stars with milky ichor
The righteous do not taste of death
Only oblivion, the space between constellations
and consciousness.
The maker unmakes,
Who spun her from enforced purity
and cast chastity like chains about the moon
Those who exiled celestial bodies into orbit
Would condemn her for the distance.
She had known love,
And lovers, before the horsemen
Before the jealous hunters
Bound all that was feral & female;
Denied her fullness & left her crescent.
It is her death we mourn,
The moon phased out.
An image of light that was,
Casting only the shadow of conqueror,
Her pale visage trampled underfoot.
Spattering the stars with milky ichor
The righteous do not taste of death
Only oblivion, the space between constellations
and consciousness.
The maker unmakes,
Who spun her from enforced purity
and cast chastity like chains about the moon
Those who exiled celestial bodies into orbit
Would condemn her for the distance.
She had known love,
And lovers, before the horsemen
Before the jealous hunters
Bound all that was feral & female;
Denied her fullness & left her crescent.
It is her death we mourn,
The moon phased out.
An image of light that was,
Casting only the shadow of conqueror,
Her pale visage trampled underfoot.
Monday, November 23, 2009
Saturday, October 11, 2008
Vigil
Nightshade trails beneath my fingers,
mingles with starshine upon the water,
in the umbered slick of bogs.
Urgent thoughts pressing against my skull:
writhing moths seeking your illumination.
I am called, by your longing or mine;
Why must I always give it voice?
You invoke within me
desperate cries in the wakeful silence.
The late hour laughs at our passion,
My helplessness, hapless irony
And beckons me forth to fill your absence
With vigils in swamps.
Nightshade trails beneath my fingers,
mingles with starshine upon the water,
in the umbered slick of bogs.
Urgent thoughts pressing against my skull:
writhing moths seeking your illumination.
I am called, by your longing or mine;
Why must I always give it voice?
You invoke within me
desperate cries in the wakeful silence.
The late hour laughs at our passion,
My helplessness, hapless irony
And beckons me forth to fill your absence
With vigils in swamps.
Wednesday, July 09, 2008
Elegy
The little deaths which comprise our lives at both ends of disappointment
Unmarked graves number or excuse compromise and discontent
I had no warning in a heart with hope warring, as though I would dissent
Youth has the years and luxury of folly later to repent
The scent of flesh hangs between us lightning seared pungent
My heathen tears drip blindly heedless of your intent
And so the minutes fall like arrows without you, and neither relent
I am forsaken in this sunken garden as statuary struggles silent
The release of what had me caught leaves me falsely despondent
Even thus abandoned I would not revoke consent
The little deaths which comprise our lives at both ends of disappointment
Unmarked graves number or excuse compromise and discontent
I had no warning in a heart with hope warring, as though I would dissent
Youth has the years and luxury of folly later to repent
The scent of flesh hangs between us lightning seared pungent
My heathen tears drip blindly heedless of your intent
And so the minutes fall like arrows without you, and neither relent
I am forsaken in this sunken garden as statuary struggles silent
The release of what had me caught leaves me falsely despondent
Even thus abandoned I would not revoke consent
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
Thursday, April 17, 2008
Saturday, June 09, 2007
Thursday, May 10, 2007
Hook at Eton
What drove him from the schoolyard to the mast?
Did he dream as all boys, of irrepressible instinct,
Wild & bloody cut-loose on the lawless sea?
Was he a Huck adrift,
evading the adult world he came to embody?
Had once his feet been fleet & light
of spirit, laughter in song?
His voice channels a child echoing rote;
In reproachful tones he chastises form,
The somber bass having outgrown his words.
What drove him from the schoolyard to the mast?
Did he dream as all boys, of irrepressible instinct,
Wild & bloody cut-loose on the lawless sea?
Was he a Huck adrift,
evading the adult world he came to embody?
Had once his feet been fleet & light
of spirit, laughter in song?
His voice channels a child echoing rote;
In reproachful tones he chastises form,
The somber bass having outgrown his words.
Saturday, January 20, 2007
Monday, August 28, 2006
Monday, May 08, 2006
Friday, April 28, 2006
Sunday, December 19, 2004
hourstruck
Our butterfly summer has faded to moth-
eaten memory in the worthless dark
before dawn, when merry-
making has turned sour
into self-parody
more poignant than a
flock of priests
red-faced in the gutter
the broken spring of faith
or dismembered dragonflies
cellophane stained glass
and an offering of flame
to the purity that burned us.
Our butterfly summer has faded to moth-
eaten memory in the worthless dark
before dawn, when merry-
making has turned sour
into self-parody
more poignant than a
flock of priests
red-faced in the gutter
the broken spring of faith
or dismembered dragonflies
cellophane stained glass
and an offering of flame
to the purity that burned us.
Plastic & Tar
I take a pick-axe to the pavement of time
Splintering cracks in fault-lines we laid
where once we lay smooth-skinned
now stretch-marked and scarred with traverse
such is the birth of souls
Prying these pale reflections of light we cast
thinking to see beyond ourselves
my nails bleed on severed stone
holding aloft what once shone
the recollection brighter than the reality.
I take a pick-axe to the pavement of time
Splintering cracks in fault-lines we laid
where once we lay smooth-skinned
now stretch-marked and scarred with traverse
such is the birth of souls
Prying these pale reflections of light we cast
thinking to see beyond ourselves
my nails bleed on severed stone
holding aloft what once shone
the recollection brighter than the reality.
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